I am not sure if I am the only one this happens to or not. I
every once in a while will have these ‘food ‘ dreams. In the
dream it could be anywhere, anytime, anyone being in the
dream is not significant. I go off my healthy eating plan BIG
time in the dreams. Then I wake up later and I am in a panic
until “I realize it was only a dream.” Does this happen to
any of you since you have been trying to loose weight?
I have to admit I am petrified to have a bad meal lest it
turn into a bad day~bad week~bad month~ I am right where I
started. I know that I have to work through this in a
HEALTHY manner. I know deep inside that if I eat off plan for
one meal I wont wake up and have gained it ALL back. I have
to work on having a healthier perspective about food. I would
like to be able to look at it as a form of fuel for my body
and that is it. However for me culterally (as most of us are)
I was raised with food being a the main focus in most times
of life.
Your sick, have some chicken soup
Your birthday- cake and ice cream
Christmas- BIG time cookie, cake, pie , candy frenzy with big
meals thrown in
Thanksgiving- no need for explanation
Easter- eggs, candy, ham etc…..
etc…………..
Do you see what I mean? If I was misbehaving as a child I got
punished go to bed without dinner/dessert etc…… (it was that
day and age). I am trying to undo a lifetime of
conditioning. It is NOT my parents fault. Afterall they were
just living the same way as most people in this day and age.
My mom’s mom was from the depression and so my mom was raised
that you eat what your given and be thankful for it period.
Food was a way to express love in my mom’s childhood days and
she in turn did that for us. Again , NOW I realize this was
just the way she knew how to express her feelings (through
food) because that is how she was conditioned. I am trying to
change that for me, for my kids……. I want to show them I love
them with words, actions, and my devotion to them as their
mom. I dont want to confuse them by making them think food is
love (or for that matter toys, games, more , more, more is
love) It is NOT it is only stuff.
I am reading this really good book that my dear sister in the
Lord/friend/aunt sent to me a few weeks ago. I am only in the
begining however this book is GREAT! It is written by John
Rosemond and it is called Parenting by THE BOOK. It is a
parenting book to beat all parenting books. He is a
psychologist! However he is (with a small group of other
doctors) realizing that the so called DOCTORS have ruined a
few generations of children. It shows an approach to raising
your children that is back to basics, the way parenting used
to be before people used therapy, and phsyco babble to raise
their kids. It is simple, basic, common sense and it happens
to be biblical. The author was not raised to be a christian
and was lost himself in all of the lies of his very own
profession until he had a epiphany an something clicked, I
wont go on anymore. IT IS GOOD! (((((Just wanted to add this
disclaimer in here. I know that there are a few children out
there whom truly need therapy for issues of real mental
illness. I also know that there are a few children {not the
hundreds of thousands overdiagnosed} with ADHD or ADD. For
these very few the author see’s a true need and value for
help.))))))
I am down to 216 flat!!!!!! I am so thrilled. I know that I
will hit a long flatland soon of no weight loss but that is
okay and to be expected. I think Sistah Pat has the right
idea. I should not really set any firm weekly goal but more
longterm ones that are forgiving to ups and downs to weight
loss. My goal should be to stick with it 99% (I am human and
not perfect), exercise and just go for the ride. I will get
to my destination . I will enjoy the ride more if I do NOT
focus on reaching weight destinations every week. Like a long
trip just enjoy the ride!
Toodles!